May I bear my soul on my blog? I tend to write only the good in my daily living…but I’ve been fighting depression for several months. Actually it’s been since my mother’s ashes were buried, beside my father, in September, 2013. Oh, I know, I have so much to be thankful for: I was beside my mother when she breathed her last breath, I have my wonderful husband, five children and spouses, 15 grandchildren, we went on a fabulous trip to Hawaii over my 75th birthday! Most of all: I have my personal relationship with Jesus. So why am I depressed? Why am I losing sleep over this?
Well, it has to do with relationships with loved ones. How can this be? I love my family. I’m referring here to some beyond my immediate family. I think I know what it’s over but I don’t know what to do about it. It’s not anything I did…but still these feelings are here. I wrote to one niece and never heard back from her. Well, perhaps a letter to each one that I have this feeling about will, at least, let them know I love them and I’m sorry for any ill feelings between us. I’ll also ask them to write to me so I can know their reasons and feelings.
I don’t know. It looks good on paper but will it do the job? It might be worth a try…
Thanks for letting me discuss this with me! Fighting depression is very difficult and no fun at all. Here’s a verse I read in my Bible: Make every effort to live in peace with all men… Hebrews 12:14.
If you are one of my praying friends, please pray for me, that this dark cloud will dissipate. I need courage and the right words to write letters. Thanks.
By the way, I don’t know that anyone of these folks read my blog.